While deleting some old emails in my very old inbox, i came across an email that jade sent me way back in 2003. just wanted to share what I found. :)

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Imagine this. In your hand is a very precious creation, so fragile, so valuable that if you keep on holding, it would either stay or fall apart. But you loved this creature so much, so much that letting it go would be like letting go of your life as well. So much that sometimes you wished it would be there forever. So much that you tend to be selfish at times so as you could make it stay for as long as you like. Don't we all wish something "so good" could be forever? Don't we all hope that happiness is there to stay?
 
There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone "so nice" and "almost perfect" and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person (sometimes without even realizing it). This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually guzzles our thoughts and actions to the extent that we tagged it as one of those "too good to be true" thing.
 
The sad part there is when we begin to realize that, this particular person feels totally nothing but friendship. A "thing" that would be forever a "thing" nothing more, nothing less...just a thing! You're just a friend, and that's the fact! Then in our desperate attempt to get closer (or at least be noticed), our efforts are still futile and we end up sorry for ourselves.
 
One person said, never ever let your heart run your life, as much as you can, always be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Try to listen not merely on what your feelings is invoking on you as a person but more importantly listen to reason as well.
 
Letting go of someone doesn't necessarily mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free (in the real sense of it), but it is also setting yourself free from all animosity, revulsion, and resentment that was long kept in your heart. You have to let go because the bitterness often puts away the strengths and weakens the littlest hope, making our lives more miserable than ever. Worst, presenting yourself as the "most affected one" sets the nastiest impression of all time--whatta a loser!
 
The trick there is...always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.
 
If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love...right? Just regard it as another mismatch of heaven! Well, you can cry of course, or whine or shout (growl even) if you have to, but make sure that after those outbursts you have washed away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you (easy said than done I know!).
 
We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. You really don't have to forget someone you love ('cause it's hard). What we need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for what we have become. I think it's better that we give off that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Hmmm..."Who could it be" is the next interesting question to ponder.

Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray hard that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.
 
"I have learned that success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has had to overcome while trying to succeed."

i once thought i wont resort to one liners in facebook to air out my sentiments regarding whatever topic i can think of but then again... convenience wins over gruelling over what to write. but hey! i'm here now. ready to write whatever it is i am able to...

let's see... what to write about... recent exploits? adventures? a you segment? hmmm...

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SURROGATES. I watched a movie with my mom today. i'm too lazy to paste a picture or attach a picture. anyway. it's a very simple story to follow. a man in search for resolution to a case only in a seemingly utopian society only to find out the root of the problem is due to the creator of the same utopia. it's a very nice seemingly short movie. but a good movie. a good recommend. and since the movie is short, so is this review. :)

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in the last couple of weeks, had lots of fun. a few weeks ago, went to Glorietta 5 to watch the JabbaWockeez. Ate at Friday's. Took lots of pictures. the week after, went to Araneta. Sadly, unable to watch the Cheering Competition. (don't ever ask why) Went to ATC Timezone, Videoke and ate at Food Choices. the week after had a few dance sessions with StreetStyle. and this week, had auditions for StreetStyle. had fun!!! but very very tiring! oh... tiring is an understatement... make it EXHAUSTED. :)

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YOU... i thought of you as a person who would be fair. but then again, you chose to use your newfound power to manipulate even me. tsk. no wonder why people are beginning to hate you.

YOU... i don't like you. other things, you are reliable. but regarding other things, i can't trust you in provide me the support i need. why can't i trust you? simply because i don't believe in your capabilities.

YOU... i now hate you for what you did. you lied. and tried to escape. let me tell you something, i feel sorry for you. may God have mercy on your soul.

YOU... you promised never to be like the one that went before. and yet you did. i absolutely have no idea what i should be feeling. i wanna be numb.

YOU... i dreamt about you for some odd reason. we were friends again. i dunno.

YOU... i wish that we'd meet up again some day... i miss hanging out with you. it's been too long. we've grown too much apart already. and i hope that we could finally be real friends again.

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i promise to at least write one note a week so that i could be able to exercise my literary mind or at least my brain cells other than work related stuff. i miss dancing with my trumpets people. i miss you guys! we should hang out soon!

till then! :)

i was supposed to write a review for Harry Potter but I got so bored with the movie I also got too bored to write a review for it. So anyway, moving forward... i watched this since I was a kid alongside Transformers and now it hits the big screen.

GI Joe: The Rise of Cobra is an story that sets alot of origins for alot of the characters. Let me give you the list: 1) The beginnings of the Cobra Organization (hence the title), 2) Duke and Ripcord being new members of the Joe Team, 3) Snake-Eyes and Storm Shadow, 4) Destro, and 5) the Baroness and her link to Cobra Commander and Duke.

I don't want to spoil much to everyone about the movie. I am very much pleased with the movie and its departure from its comic and cartoon counterparts. The movie itself is like the Transformers movie but without the giant robots. Of course, there are some things that I didn't like though but not enough for me not to like the movie which are specifically Scarlett and Ripcord's love angle, and Duke and the Baroness' past together.

Things I loved about the movie: Pulse pistols and cannons, nanotechnology, the fall of the Eiffel Tower, Delta suits and alot of explosions and the chase scene in Paris. I absolutely like the idea on how Scarlett's crossbow got modified from a simple crossbow with an array of specialized arrows to a specialized laser-guided crossbow with a target-recording homing function. The Baroness's twin pulse pistols that is utilized in every way that replaced her twin "normal" pistols. Duke and Ripcord donning the Delta Accelerating suits that made a run after the Baroness and Storm Shadow through the streets (and walls) of Paris was one of the scenes I enjoyed watching.

All in all, the movie (even with some plot elements that I don't like) is a good movie. Can't wait for the sequels. :)

I actually looked forward in watching this movie and quite frankly i was not disappointed. Compared to the 2007 film, this one is by far, for me, one of the best movies of the year.

This movie introduce new Autobots and alot of Decepticons. I much appreciated the slight changes from the original Transformers. The original concept of the characters were very given variations in the movie incarnations. New characters were also introduced. Action scenes accompanied with its special effects were the centerpiece of it all.

I don't want to give much to this review because i might spoil it for the rest of those who haven't seen it. All i can say is, this is a great movie. I grew up to Transformers when I was a kid. And seeing it like this, gave me more appreciation for what I knew before. There are some issues with some of the characters but I now undrstood that this can be seen as an alternate reality. so it's fine. :)

I hope there's another sequel. I would want to see Trypticon, Metroplex, Omega Supreme, Dinobots, Galvatron and his Group or even Unicron. I would want to have Elita 1 to be in it. Since Arcee already found her way in the movie. *crosses fingers*

This is indeed a movie to recommend. Even if you did not watch the first, you will appreciate it.

PS
Why is my title "There are Robots in Heaven"? well... watch the movie. You'll understand. :)

it was such a long time ago. i could not remember why things happened. we were very close at least for the most part of what i thought. i enjoyed the company. we had our moments. i miss them actually. our heart-to-hearts. you were my best friend. a best friend that i could not find in any other. and upto this point in time, i could not bring myself to find such a person anymore.

after our falling out... we may have forgiven each other for whatever... given the chance to put away our differences.  but... everything changed. as should everything in this world...

i said i'll never talk about it nor will i be bound by the restraints of the past... is this what the Lord told me? it's time to let the wounds heal... time to let go... but why is it so hard... and why now? after all this time...

it's killing me inside. not knowing what to do...

i will still not talk about it no matter how many people ask. this is mine and mine alone to deal with. mine alone to bury and completely be done with.

i have been on LOA and this is the first time i got the chance to write about what happened to me. hehehe. so anyway, for those who don't know.... i was sick. i had a severe case of atopic dermatitis and urticaria. for thos who don't know, atopic dermatitis is commonly known as skin asthma (skin breaks that when scratched bleeds and spreads), and urticaria is known as hives (red marks on the skin that also spreads when scratched).

so yes. i have been on LOA since friday last week. and it was only at this past 2 days that my skin cleared. still a few itches here and there but i'm fine. getting much better by the day. needed some time to de-stress myself. i needed this. too much work. too much.

please someone tell me if i work too much?

have to cut this short. i have to rest already. goodnyt guys. just needed to tell you.... i'm fine. :)

No one is willing to die for a vision. People will die for a cause.
You posses a vision. A cause possesses you.
A vision lies in your hands. A cause lies in your heart.
A vision involves sacrifice. A cause involves the ultimate sacrifice...
You must have the right vision, and you must be fighting for the right cause.
In the end, right will always win out. It may take time, and it may take long.
But if you have the right vision and are fighting for the right cause, you will prevail.
If not, no matter how sincere you are, if you are not fighting for what is right, you will ultimately fail.

just wanted to share what i found. :)

I haven't read the Dan Brown books so this review is basically what I think about its film adaptations. So ok. Angel and Demons (AD) is a sequel of The DaVinci Code (DVC) which is in fact a reverse compared to its books. AD were written before DVC but they made it the other way around since the latter was the first to be out in the theaters, they treated AD as its sequel which was very much okay in my opinion.

The story revolves around the apparent return of the secret society, the Illuminati, to undermine the seat of the catholic church which is Vatican City and the papacy. The pope is dead. A conclave is about the be convened, but at the aftermath of the death, four cardinals and major candidates for the papacy are kidnapped. Tom Hanks returns as the Symbologist Robert Langdon and was summoned by Vatican City to help out in a case about the kidnapping. He is joined by a female scientist, Vittoria Vetra (actress Ayelet Zurer) who also came to the Vatican because not only was the four cardinals were kidnapped but also a canister of anti-matter was stolen and was seen in the ransom footage sent to te Swiss Guard. Ewan MacGregor joins the cast as the Carmelengo, the pope's most trusted aide which also happens to be hiding something that the audience will initially think he is but will continue to ask "could he?"

It's a action mystery movie about the inner workings of the church, the Vatican City and the Illuminati. Alot of chase scenes all around the Vatican City, morbid death scenes in the Four Shrines of Science and plot twists that are apparent at the beginning but are also present towards the end of the movie.

It's a recommend.:) i loved the "history" lesson because it is not the normal conversation but with action as well. I throw this out for you to decide if it's a good movie or not. but for me it is. :)

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SIDENOTE: I spent Mom's day watching a movie with my Mom, lunch and some errands. well anyway...

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Space. The Final Frontier. Well in this case, this is the Enterprise's first mission. Actually, Star Trek is an alternate retelling of the early years of Enterprise. And when I say early years, think William Shatner but still a cadet, which is now seen to be Chris Pine, in Starfleet Academy.

For those who are not real fans of the Star Trek saga, will actually understand the movie without actually knowing the series nor the other Trek movies. It is a retelling of how James T. Kirk (Chris Pine which was William Shatner in the original series and movies) became part of Starfleet, how he met Mr. Spock (Heroes' Sylar, Zachary Quinto, which was Leonard Nimoy in the original) and the rest of the original Enterprise Crew. Technically, the story unfolded as its supposed to. Kirk becomes captain of Enterprise but the circumstances on how he accomplishes this is different than the original.

I actualy enjoyed watching it for story that is not hard to understand, for the elaborate special and visual effects and the simple plot twists that sets it apart from its original beginnings. Much like XMen Origins, it is a very simple movie. They say it will have two more sequels, i wonder what will be about.

Go watch it! :)

I used to think I was ok with everything and yet when I see you I think otherwise. but what I don't understand why I am sick to my stomach every time I do. What we had was something I thought would last but then with what happened, I rethought of everything. I chose to walk away to spare myself the hurt of seeing you but no matter how hard I tried, it's hard not to forget.

With you leaving, I would want to set things straight. Try to muster up some strength and courage to tell you what I felt. But then, being scared always gets the best of me. As they say, nothing risked nothing gained. What will I gain from all of this if I risk what's left in me? Life lessons that I will never understand until the point that it's too late to get everything back? No thanks. I'd rather spend my time searching within myself and be a better me because being productive in my own ways than wasting it on something I know that don't even know what could happen.

Change is the only thing constant but up to what point are you willing to accept everything as they are presented to you? Will you forever roll with what is because you can't make your own choice? You are who you make of yourself. But what if someone else made that choice for you? Do you still consider that this was the best course of action? Do you follow a path steady as the beating drum dictated by those who had absolutely no right to make the choice for you? or follow the beat of your own heart regardless of what they say?

It is through these choices that make us into better people. The choice is not always good but as long as you made them on your own free will and capacity, to heck with other people say and that choice is always yours to make.

it has been quite awhile that i actually made a post about recent happenings in my life, random ramblings, angst, and all that. i just got the chance to read an entry by one of my closest friends and he said that the blogosphere has been reduced to mere randomness without any literary depth nor emotion. well... i have to agree that since the dawn of instant status changes especially in facebook, making long entries about all the recent happenings or about getting in touch of what you feel at that moment has been reduced to one phrase or one sentence.

i want to get back in that state where blogging has been cathartic. i havent been blogging in such a long time that i myself have reduced to facebook's one-liners that allowed me to just be random. haaaaay.

ok i'll try to get my momentum again....

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from the last entry i had about changes.... well... the change has begun. i don't want to give any details on what this change is about but i know the people who will actually read this know what i'm talking about without me actually saying what the change is. i have but one thing to say... change cannot be accepted by the general populace if the reasons behind the change are not fully explained to them. we're not stupid not to figure things out. so i suggest, get your act together and explain this or else you won't have anyone to boss around.

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there's this event which a group i was included in, won 1st. now, there will be a new competition. but this time, we are up against our counterparts in the different part of the business. i chose not to include myself. because as part of the winning group that is technically supposed to lead were not given importance. if you think that "making us audition" is giving us importance, check your dictionary because its not the same thing. i will not subject myself nor my team to scrutiny by people who obviously has no business in judging. i'd rather not join. thanks anyway.

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now what else... hmmm... ah then there's that very humiliating exprience i had a few weeks ago. let's just say i couldn't believe that person can be so... hmm... i dont know what the word i'm looking for is... whatever that is. that's that. i felt so misled and misused. well... water under the bridge is soon forgotten.

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i just came from hongkong last weekend. pictures are up at my multiply site http://jabibi.multiply.com. and it as a very tiring yet very happy vacation. we had nothing to spend but pocket money. you may ask why? because i had my picanto traded for a new car. and since kia had a promo that time,they offered a 3days-2nights stay in hk all expense paid. and that was the most exciting thing ever since all we need to worry about was pocket money which was a non-issue. anyway... moving on.

day one was the most tiring one. we left manila at 8am. arrived at HK around 11 or so. went up to an ATM machine to get some money. went up to the travel agency partnered with the one we had business with here in mla where we got our tickets. rode a bus to our hotel, the marco polo prince. arrived at the hotel at aroud 12:30. that was such a long bus ride. when we got to the hotel, we were told that the room will be ready at 2. so... we had time to walk around and have lunch. we still havent settled in. best place to eat? mcdonalds where else? at least we got to try what mcdonalds will be like there. since e had time to kill, we walked around and already got octopus cards. and when it was about 2, headed back to the hotel and finally settled in.

we then headed to the MTR (hongkong's version of the MRT) rode it to Tung Chung to Ngong Ping 360 where the cable cars are and the outlet stores were in. my mom said she doesnt want to ride the cable car anymore so i asked the attendant there if its possible to just go to the souvenir shop without actually riding the cable car. and we found our way to buy soe stuff and left ngong ping. was excited to check out the stores but to my dismay it's not what i expected. ada, an officemate, did tell me that there are some items in hk that are more expensive compared here in manila. so i wasnt able to buy anything, we left the area headed back to the hotel which was only 20minutes away via MTR.

when we got back we rested for a few hours headed back out for the symphony of lights and to walk around the avenue of stars. had a few photos taken in front of the hk skyline and the avenue itself. had a picture of the stars of chow yun fat, jet li, bruce lee, jackie chan and michelle yeoh. i didn't see if zhang ziyi had a star though. hehehe. and thats the end of day one.

day two was supposed to be fun but sadly it rained hard. we went to hk disneyland. we were there before the park opened. we got in around 12. so its ok. anyway... to cut the long story short, we went to see the festival of the lion king - a 30 minute retelling of the first lion king animated film with elaborate floats and light shows, the golden mickeys - a sort of an awards show that showcased disney films. we even saw a filipino singer there, ralion alonzo. hehehe. when the rain stopped and thank goodness it did. the disney parade was on its way. float by float passing by with disney characters on them. i felt like a kid again. when the band passed by, this trumpet player looked at me and said "Mabuhay!" knowing i was a filipino. i shouted back! smiled and felt really good knowing a filipino outside the country. after the parade, we shopped for few things for the people back home. then it was time for high school musical live. well... i wasnt happy with it. disappointing. i wasnt able to dance like i planned. so anyway... it's a good thing the feel good feeling i had during the disney parade was able to still make me happy. hehehe. it was about 5pm already. so we just waited for the fireworks display. i have a video! but it's too long to upload. hehehehe.

day three was short. had a walk in kowloon park. walked around canton road and nathan road as well. had a few pictures. prepared for the bus ride to the airport. and the airport does not look like one but a mall! with alot of stores inside! hehehe. :) 2 hour flight and i'm back to reality. crap. i didnt want to go back! sheesh.

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was supposed to meet madz, rhea, dang and mariel yesterday @ amici. but i wasnt able to join them because my team had an ad hoc teambuilding since my tl will be leaving us to be assigned to a different team. a depressing day for me though. but i was able to meet mariel in SM. and to be happy again, i had to shop. hehehe. i bought for myself two new shirts from giordano. and a watch.

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i can't wait for the dance contest. :)